I just got a question for you, “is you happy?”

                Why you wanna go and do that, love, huh?

That’s exactly what I’m talking about.  Why you wanna do that? Why you wanna be that guy?  Why you wanna tear me apart?  Why you wanna ignore me?  Why you wanna hurt me like that?  Why you wanna act like I’m not here?

I wonder sometimes, about the outcome.  Am I living it right?  Am I doing something wrong?  Did I zig when I should have zagged?  I don’t know.  It hardly matters at this point, as long as I have a smile on.  And I am going to vow (at least try) to keep a smile on.  I am sick of being unhappy and unsatisfied.  Everything happens for a reason, and I am ready to just do whatever presents itself.  No more fear.  No more rationalizations.

 My parents were just here drinking cocktails and looking at pictures from my past.  I told them things I would never have imagined telling them, but it was all good.  I am all about the honesty from here on out.  No more lies.  No more half-truths.  Life is what it is.  (That puts a huge, irrational smile on my face.) 

Truth #1:  Love is not forever. 

Truth #2:  Children are wonderful, but some people use them as an excuse to not live their lives.

Truth #3:  I like people who are much younger than me, because they are more true to themselves and don’t’ give a shit what other people think.

Truth #4:  While I can’t speak for all alcoholics, I think that liquor is beautiful and stimulating and promotes honesty (more core values). In vino, veritas (in wine, truth)

Truth #5:  People should probably smoke more pot.  I have no proof or rationalization here, but I think it’s probably true.

Truth #6:  I spend too much time trying to think on this stupid fucking computer.  I’m going to go play with the dog I’m babysitting; it has to be more productive than sitting on my ass looking at this screen.

                Peace out.